Maybe now you see how i felt all those months. ALONE. With no one. At least that’s the way it seemed. So maybe I don’t want to fully forgive you for not being what what i needed as a friend. Maybe this time i want to hold a grudge unlike all the other times you’ve done things that i’ve over looked. All the times you’ve betrayed me and I blew it off because you were my bestfriend. Maybe I have finally realized that i have never not been there for you and you have never been there for me. So maybe I am being mean and trying to show you what it’s like. I know it’s rude. And i know it’s being a bad friend, But throughout this friendship I feel like I was the only one who cared and tried. So maybe I don’t want to be that one any more. Maybe it breaks my heart so much seeing you like this and seeing the things you do that I need to separate myself because i can’t handle it and it tears me apart. So I’m sorry it seems like no one cares but maybe if you stopped being selfish for a couple of minutes and cared about our lives and our feelings then we could return the favor.